Leaders in Contrast

Mark 6:26-27

And the king was exceedingly sorry, but because of his oaths and his guests he did not want to break his word to her. And immediately the king sent an executioner with orders to bring John's head.

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This chapter continues the narrative of Jesus' healing ministry as he travels from town to town and even sends his apostles to work miracles as well. Then, interjected into the narrative is an excursion describing the death of John the Baptist at the hands of King Herod. In this way, the chapter offers us a striking contrast between the leadership qualities of Jesus and Herod.

Verses 1-6 describe how Jesus was rejected in his own hometown. He preaches the message of the kingdom, but his own neighbors, those he has known his whole life, were offended by him. They questioned his authority because they knew his humble origins. And while Jesus knew they would be offended and would reject him, he did not back down from giving them the truth and then marveling at their unbelief. In Jesus' leadership, we see incredible courage to resist caving into the pressures of culture or the fear of man.

No so with Herod.

Herod's leadership wreaks of people-pleasing - the kind of political hand-kissing that continues to nauseate us on the news media today. And Herod's fear of man went so far as to order the execution of a man he respected. We see in verse 20 that Herod had gladly listened to John's teaching. We see in verse 26 that Herod was exceedingly sorry that he had made an oath that had endangered John's life. But, whatever his conflicting emotions might have been, the fact of the matter was that Herod had arrested, imprisoned, and then ordered the execution of God's prophet. His people-pleasing knew no limits, even in spite of his own grief-stricken consicence.

When I read this chapter, it was verse 20 that followed me around all day long. How often have I experienced heart-felt regret and remorse, only to continue the very behaviors that lead to such feelings. Like a dog to its own vomit, I feel a magnetic attraction to thoughts and actions which run counter to the glory of God and the dignity of man. I grieve, but do I repent? (The contrasting stories of Judas and Peter come to mind as well).

I pray that I may avoid the "exceeding" sorrow which does not lead to repentance, or the unbelief which leads Jesus to "marvel." I want to be a leader like Christ, who considered the potentially offensive nature of his message and preached it anyway, rather than the powerful king who showed how weak he really was by saving his own reputation at the expense of a godly man's life.

Lord, have mercy.

The Last Breath

Psalm 6:4-5

Turn, O LORD, deliver my life;
save me for the sake of your steadfast love.
For in death there is no remembrance of you;
in Sheol who will give you praise?

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There are some realities that are too full of emotion to put into words. That may sound trite, but consider how much poetry has been written through the centuries concerning the two great mysteries: love and death. Perhaps that is why so many believers have turned to the Psalms in their desperate hours, when life is hanging on by a thread because of some unspeakable injustice, or some stomach-turning grief.

David found himself at a loss for words. We don't know what the context of this Psalm was, what caused David's eye to waste away because of grief. But we do know that it shut his mouth.

Be gracious to me, O LORD, for I am languishing;
heal me, O LORD, for my bones are troubled.
My soul also is greatly troubled.
But you, O LORD---how long?

That last line resonates in my mind as I consider the pain I have witnessed this year in the hearts and in the eyes of some of my closest friends. When the sorrows come there can be only few words. And, even those few words may be truncated by tears or loss of breath. David can only get out that last line with trembling and quivering lips. Don't gloss over the words here; the sentence structure says it all. The pain is too great for exposition. Only emotion remains.

I notice the repetition of "O LORD" and wonder at the focus and direction of this prayer. He is fixated on the source of Life, his only hope in the midst of this disaster that threatens him. O LORD! O LORD! O LORD! Where else can I turn? And then he reasons with God, the best that he can in the midst of this.

For your sake, O LORD; for the sake of your reputation, deliver me. Who will praise you in death? Who will remember you by dying? Reach out and deliver me and let it be to your praise.

And he did. This time. God heard David's weeping and accepted his prayer. David's confidence grew and he began to trust that his enemies would be turned away and defeated. But, this is not always the case with sorrow.

But, before you despair of the pain and grief that God may choose to leave with you, consider also the Man of Sorrows. Turn to Isaiah 53. Consider His grief and wonder at the cross. It is a balm to the weary, and comfort to know that someone is with you, someone who cares is with you to hear your truncated prayers, to hear those last breaths, those wordless breaths, and he will never leave you nor forsake you.